Change is in the air

Well.. my life is getting so weird lately "S" called me last night and gave me an earful on how I didn't call him or keep in touch ( mega lie ) So we had an ok chat then a few hours later at like 12am he calls & tells me to come over ! I said no way its late and the buses have stopped on the island. Then he just says if you want me come over come now get a taxi I will pay :O (he lives an hour from me) so I call a cab only two cabs working on the island at this time of night so its an hour and a half wait anyway I get there at around 2.30am he is in the middle of the road waiting so not like him a real mess very drunk so I take him inside Its just like it always was we have that flow and something draws me to him I cant control it I wish I could so he starts hugging me and touching again not like him we kissed then he takes off his shirt as well as mine and we are in the bedroom before I know it, He then takes off all his clothes and lies on the bed I do the same instant attraction then the rest follows till 7am haha the only bad thing was he bites HARD on nipples and my neck I had to push him away it hurt so much & we snuggled all night until morning he had to work at 9 so we had to get up straight away & he just went to work and said ill call you later stay here for the day if you want I said ill just go home he was rather cold in the morning but he is like that a fair bit he also told me he cant express his emotions like others or affection so he seems cold but its just him I get that : ) so now the ball is in his court I wont be devastated if he never calls it was almost like closure in a way but I do hope that's not the end. C.

Take a chance

Oh My God "S" sent me a manhunt msg last night, It's nothing amazing but its a msg ! 

"S" is a guy that I'm in love with but I don't know what he wants. Anyway I haven't seen or heard from him in over 4 months but I still cannot rid him from my memory I think I'm on my way to been emotionally crushed again but I want to take that risk, I have never felt this strongly about a person ever ! so why not fight to have it back ? Anyway the msg is below hopefully he calls tonight if not i will move on with Antonio. Oh and the update on my car calamity is they(aka insurance company)  are fixing over $12000 damage on the front of the car but ! the back is smashed in as well due to the police pushing the car off the road with a giant pushing SUV thing ? sooo they tell me that's another incident all together and i will have to make another claim and pay heaps more excess so I said no and I will repair the back on my own accord $800 damage that's ok so all up my loss is $2,200 in fines and excess and repair's that's ok !! i have that money on hand but its chipping into my savings, the damage to my emotional mental and physical well being is much higher. C.

One step forward two steps back

Well what an eventful week I have had On Tuesday I managed to have a car accident It was horrible my car was totally smashed at the front and was towed away no one was hurt
luckily, It was me who hit the other car it was at an intersection in the city, I was giving way
to traffic then it was clear so I drove ahead and another car which I might add was speeding came out of no where and i hit the side of them "joy" So it was my first accident ever in my less than two year old car which I have only just fully paid off but you cant cry over spilled milk I guess & its lucky no one was hurt. I am off to see the car tomorrow and they are letting me know what the damage is and if it is repairable hopefully it is thank god for insurance.On the plus side I had my hair cut new style nice and short shortest I have ever had but I'm loving it that was on Tuesday I was going to the hairdressers when I crashed & I was about 5 minutes from the car park but after all of that I still made the appointment only 10 minutes late the police drove me to the mall haha. Antonio is flying back here on Saturday yay our plans are a little ruined since I don't have a car now but we are working around that I cant wait to see him I need some hot steamy sex right now !!! anyway that's my update till next time C.

On a lighter note..

Ok after my depressing whine haha I bought Kimbra's new album (vows) yesterday & it is my new favourite I recommend it for summer car cruising : )  

Suffocating

So I'm feeling so emotionally drained atm... It's like i'm trapped in this house with these people 
that are choking the life out of me, My dad is just a complete disease I cant stand him i'm just dealing with it JUST we have never had a good relationship he isn't a nice person at all and not someone I wish to associate with, But I wanted to move up here and escape the country so I have to stay for a while I didn't intend on living here for so long, But its been so hard to find work once I have it then i'm set !! and already established so I am just waiting till that moment and I hope it arrives soon before my entire spirit is consumed by these depressing parasites. C

Fingers Crossed

So today I had another job interview for a apprentice hairdresser 1st year, The interview went

well the staff were so nice, since its a small suburban hair salon It's nice and relaxed not like 

the last place I applied for in the city what a nightmare that was so now I'm just waiting for the call back to go in for a trial day I hope I get it, I'm sick of this unemployment slump of my life It's been 4 months since I moved here & still no job, & I love working I feel lost without a career path. I know I'm a little old to start a apprenticeship but you have to start somewhere and I am drawn to hairdressing so time to start. Antonio is still away its been two weeks now & I'm dying to catch up (so is he) He told me today it could be a week or a couple of days till he is finished up there !! o well I can wait it's defiantly worth it, I had another guy approach me he was very sexy tall muscled footballer on holidays haha but I declined because I just want Antonio atm no one else & I would feel very guilty if I met up with that guy, It took allot of will power to turn him down too I'm a loyal kind of guy i guess. C

Beach Babe

So I finally got to the beach today & it was lovely just warm sunny and pleasant, I think it was fishing day for the island natives the beach was full of fisherman (no cute ones either all 45+) I managed to take a few nice photos & possibly got a tan yay. Also for the first time ever I wore a singlet !! I have always been iffy about them because I'm muscle less haha but it wasn't too bad so I took the risk and it was comfortable, And I don't think I looked bad at all but who is there to impress on that beach besides the retired population that inhabit the beach. The area where my dad lives is full of retirement communities and nursing homes, its pretty much where the over 50 come to retire so no young people are ever on the beach if so they are families, But  the actual beach is beautiful so calm and the white sand is amazing, The few photos i took are below including a vivid blue jelly fish i found it was so luminous. C.

 

Glamorous me.